Friday fill ins --> april 9, 2010

1. In 1992, I was 15 yrs old & a completely irrational, irresposible, inconsiderare teenager! LOL
sorry bout that Mom :)♥
2. Even tho they sometimes drive to the brink of insanity -- my kids bring me lots of laughter and smiles.
3. Do what you LOVE, with what you LOVE, where you LOVE.
that 1 was just too easy! LOL!!
4. several lbs lighter is where I'd like to be.
5. The trees and flowers are telling me to get off my arse & take my lil beasties outside for a walk.
6. I have the headache that just keeps going on & on & on -- its like the energizer bunnies of headaches, which is NOT a good thing *grrrr*
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to dh being home & not having to worry bout getting up early to take my oldest to school 2moro, tomorrow my plans include Trent & Logan getting haircuts, Kenzie gettin her bangs trimmed by our fantabulous & awesome hair stylist Nikki, then we are planning a park trip or *if* its windy we are gonna take the kidlets out to fly their kites, and Sunday, we are hoping to go to the Bubblefest! we have never been, but are hoping to go this weekend, its a whole show bout bubbles -- they also have a photo op where they will blow a bubble all the way around u & take a photo!!! I really hope we are able to go, will be so much fun :)

Happy Friday everyone!! have a wonderful weekend!
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Take care
♥B

Celebrity Fit Club

I LOVE IT!!!
i had never watched this show b4 this season
BUT when i saw that Sebastian Bach was on this season, i mean HEEEELLLLLOOOOOOO!!!?!?!?!!! how could i NOT watch :) any of you that knew me as a teenager, knew that i was (ok maybe still am) a bit --
ok a HUMONGO sebastian back fan! omgood golly! hot! hot! hotttttttttie!!!!!! woohoo!!! even know, at 41 (I think) he is still gorgeous *sigh*
yep, still love him :) ♥♥♥
& I gotta say i totally was NOT a fan of kevin federline! ever. not at all! in no way, shape or form. i just did NOT not not like him b4 this show. nope nada! i was totally set to despise him the whole show! LOL!!!! BUT he is totally not at all the person that i thot he was -- i totally just fed into & believed all the hoopla in the tabloids & crap. but my opinion of KFed had completely changed! he is actually a very decent guy & (cant believe i am saying this ACK!) he is rather hot when he isnt a chubster! LOL!
yes, this season has most def been my guilty pleasure --
cant wait to see who is on next season :) not sure if i will watch again -- maybe....
i am watching the last show of this season right now ........
pretty much down to Jay of Kevin to win it
Go Kfed :) LOL!!!

NO MORE!!!

i absolutely DESPISE backing up my photos! I hate it!!! gaaaaah!
it just takes SO long (I KNOW it wouldnt take so long if i did it more often, i dont wanna hear it **grrrrrr***)
i have been working on these since last night & I havent even made a dent
sigh
i havent backed up since 2008
EARLY 2008
do you have ANY IDEA how MANY pics i have taken since then
ALOT!!!!! a whole messuva lot!
this is gonna take me the rest of my life to back all these up! LOL!!!
it seems as if it will never end
so if you dont hear from me again - its because i am STILL in front of this darned computer backing up pictures
sigh..................
guess i should go back to work now.....
♥B

*~*~ warning -- stitches photo ~*~*

ACK! no wonder it hurts!!!! its ugly ugly! UGLY!!
so, if you don't know "the story" -- i had a lump removed from my shoulder a lil over a week ago & this is the aftermath :( so bleky!!! & omgosh it hurts!! so so much! i thot my Dr said that he put in TWO stitches -- that is SO NOT 2 {sigh} gaaaah!!! & I had NO IDEA it would be all bruised like that!!! i mean CRAP!!! thats awful!!! its so ugly & hurty! & it scares me to have the stitches taken out -- even tho that still like a week ago, i am already nervous about it. i am a worrier (in case u didnt know). i am wondering about how ugly the scar is gonna be {sigh} guess we will see :(
i go to see the neuro this week -- nothing has changed in the past month. that means she is gonna either up the does of these pointless meds or put me on the LAST meds that she wants me to try before she sends me to a pain management Dr. not sure how i feel about that -- on 1 hand I always thot i needed to be with a pain management Dr because these doc's dont seem to understand the PAIN i am in almost 24/7 *but* she has told me that going to pain management means that i will be put on the heavier pain meds! I just DONT get that! i dont need to be on heavy meds so WHY would they put me on them!!?!?!! just because i am seeing a pain Dr??? that just does not make any sense to me {sigh} i mean really! i dont get it!!! maybe she was just trying to scare me -- but that doesnt make sense either, i mean -- why??
oh well, guess i will just hafta wait & see what happens {sigh}
so frustrating tho!! I am so sick of these Dr's just ignoring me :( & not understanding or even trying to inderstand! I mean, it took me TWO yrs to get in to see the neuro & she doesnt even GET IT! isnt that HER SPECIALTY??? shouldnt she be trying to do something to help me?!?!!!! GAAAAH!!!!! stupid idiots
anyway --
now i am irritated
LOL!!!
okies, blog more later :)
take care
♥B

friday fill ins --> feb 12, 2010

1. Pickles are yummy!!!
2. james is at home, he has no school today or monday :)
3. The snow is not anywhere near me cuz i am in so cal! LOL! i would love to have some snow tho! so if any of you wanna send it my way, please do
4. there are lots of bugs in nature.
5. It's 5:16 PM; that means dh is on his way home! WOOT!!!
6. peace & quiet is hard to find in my home lately-- due to the 2 toddlers
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to dh being home!!!! i have never been so glad its friday!! its been a LONG week!! tomorrow my plans include doing nothing!!! and Sunday, I want to sleep in!



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take care
♥B

latest scrappy stuff

i havent done alot of creating lately *but* heres a look at what i have done --
i did this LO for my Tams Sketches! blog
here is the latest sketch

& my LO

i did this LO for the January issue of Pagemaps
i really love this 1 -- i adore this PP xmas pp!!
& this is a wreath that i made for my mom for Christmas :)
i LOVE the way it came out! i got my inspiration for this from Holly Hanks-- she is a wonderful scrapper :) great inspiration!!
& my mom loves it! YAY!!! i am so happy that i made her happy

& I also made her these clips that hold photos for my Mom for xmas (I put a pic in each one, 1 of each of my kids) made these out of binder clips--
i have a few other LOs that i have done but i cant post yet :) i will get them posted over the next few weeks as Tam posts them on the Sketches! blog
& I am hoping to scrap some tonight &/or tomorrow
***hopefully***
thats all i have for now :)
take care
♥B

catching up :)

sorry i have been neglecting my blog
oops! had so much going on, health-wise that i just havent been on the puter much -- it was hurting my eyes just way way way to much to sit & look at the computer, much less sit & think & type! no way!!!
so -- what has been happening with me?
well, i got my botox shots for my headaches/migraines
& that was the begining of the BLEK!!!! lol after i got the shots my doc & neuro yanked me off several different meds
so i got pretty sick from coming off all the narcotics, among many other things {sigh}
& let me tell you THAT SUCKED!!!!! big big big time :( like the worst 4,5,6 days of my life!!! for sure! never want to have to go thru that again! nope! never ever!!!
so now that is over with
BUT the headaches ARE NOT!!! gaaaah! go figure, right??? the neuro has only had ONE PERSON in all her years of giving the botox for headaches that it didnt help --
i am still trying to decide if its helping enough that i want to keep getting them every 3 months
i dunno
it just freaks me out SO SO badly!!! i mean like 17 or so shots -- in several spot along both my eyebrows, temples, IN MY SCALP!!!! gaaah! those ones really freaked me!!! & along the base of my skull & IN both my shoulders
{sigh}
scary, huh?
i think so!!!! i am not normally afraid of shots at all BUT, putting them in THOSE spots -- creepy to me!!!
& now i cant move my face :( that makes me angry! LOL!!! i can barely raise my eyebrows, & cant bring the together in the middle AT ALL!!! i totally feel trapped in my face! & have had more then 1 anxiety attack about it -- i know some ppl will prolly think i am crazy for that LOL!!! but i am like the most EXTREMELY claustrophobic person you would ever meet!! i mean it! seriously!! i get really freaked out if i am in a car & it is raining hard -- makes me feel SO claustrophobic, just freaks freaks freaks me out!!!!! so not being able to move my face, gaah!!! just hate it :(
so, i dunno
but as far as the headaches -- well, like i said they arent gone, not by any means :( i had 2 migraines last week, along with a headache that lasted 4 days
so, last week was just plain painful! have a slight headache today, hopefully it will pass after i eat something. ***crossing finners!!!***
but it does seem that IN BETWEEN the headaches there is no pain --
what i mean by that is
before when i would have a headaches 'go away' i would still feel the pain -- like it lingered! I could almost ALWAYS feel the pain in my head of a headaches coming or going or current or whatever - but there was just always some pain going on!! but now it seems that in between the headaches, i actually have times with NO pain!!! i havent felt the feeling of no pain in LITERALLY years!!!!! it was really weird at first!! so, i dunno. its really hard to know if its the botox thats helping or some of the meds that i am not taking or what the deal is {sigh}
i dunno
i kinda feel like i am back where i started a few yrs ago before i even had a dr treating me LOL!! cuz i had the headaches for yrs before i went to a dr about them. i just dealt with them on my own. i almost feel like i was better off before i went to a doc for them -- cuz thats what started all the meds
oh well, cant go back now
so, thats the deal with that!! lol
long story, huh? sorry :) if you are still with me -- then thanks for hangin there thru all that!
i think thats all for now
i will do another catch up post about the kids & fam & scrappy stuff later :)
hope you are all doing well!!!
take care~
♥B

a new kit club!

just a quick post --
go here for a chance to win an i-top :)
u hafta take a lil survey about kits to be entered to win at 'the story matters'
yay!! looks like its gonna be a good kit club!
there are some sneaks up of their 1st kit for february-- looks like a good kit :)
♥B

Who's that girl?!!!

My good friend Bree has brought back her AAM challenges!!! Woohoo!!!
I am so happy & so excited!!
Her new challenge blog is---> Who's that Girl
u just HAVE to have a look-see!! Bree has THE best challenges!! she always comes up with the best journaling prompts!
oh and I should also mention, she is an incredibley talented & creative scrapper!!!
she has pulled together a fabulous DT for her new challenge blog & the first challenge is posted, along with all of the design teams beautiful work! AND they are having a blog hop right now!! AND there are PRIZES!!! Woot!!! :)
i am most def planning to play along -- not only this challenge but as often as I can! because Brees challenges always make me think & give me great ideas for my scrapping! & some different perspectives for my journaling! which i think is always great for my scrapbooks
I hope to see lots of you playing along with me :)
take care
♥B

losing my mind

what was i thinking when i had these 2 lil kiddlets so close together? am i insane???!?!!! what EVER gave me the impresison that i could handle TWO toddlers at ONE time {sigh} was i trying to punish myself for something :(
well -- in case you cant tell
i am not well!!!
LOL!!!
i am going nutso with these 2 lil beasties of mine :)
i think "MOOOOoooooooooooooooooooommmmmmmmmmmmm" is said, yelled, screamed -- no less than 350 times every day
i should count it! LOL!
but really, its ALOT!!!
they are both in this whining, screaming stage -- that is SO frustrating!!!!
Logan had started being very aggresive with Kenzie -- he pushes, hit, scratches, KICKS, punches & anything else he can do to hurt her -- & he screams at her, right in her face!
which of course makes her scream, cry - & she is starting to HIT back!! greeeeeeeeeeaaat!!!
altho, i cant say that i blame her
but he just TORTURES her!! she comes running, at top speed, as FAST as those little wee legs will take her-- screaming to find me because she is so terrified of him! its really very sad!
& i remember the feeling --
oh yes, my big brother used to torture the hell outta me!!! ALL the time! until we were teenagers!! i can remember running & screaming at the top of my lungs from him, when i was well into my teens. its awful! why do boys do this? {sigh} & i wish i knew how to make him stop. i just dont know the answer & I HATE that!!! i dont know what to do FOR HER! & I dont know how to make him understand what he is doing to her! & the LASTING impression it is leaving on her & how its hurting their relationship.
not that she is completely a sweet, little angel LOL!! not at all!!! but, she is mostly acting in self-defense & self-preservation
ack! like i said
what was I THINKING???
oh & ummmm
throwing a TEENAGE boy on top of that
omgosh :(
i must be crazy!!!
{sigh}
or if not, then i WILL BE soon
by the time dh gets home at night i am just so emotionally & mentally drained that i can barely deal with anything
i just pass them off & go to my room
luckily my husband is very understanding & if i tell him that i need a break, he tells me "ok, go"
he very rarely gives me any hassle about taking some time for myself
i know how lucky i am that he is that way
i dont know how i would do it, if i was alone, 24-7
i take my hats off to single moms & those that have their partners overseas or that work out of town or whatever -- i dont know how you do it!! but u must be amazing, miracle parents!!!
i feel like a not-so-good mom right now
i just dont have the patience that i should
{sigh}
i am never sure if i am dicsiplining them right
i yell
& I wish i didnt
i hate yelling
but it seems thats the only way to get my voice heard when they are both yelling & screaming at me or eachother
my house is so loud :(
i want a quiet, peaceful house
is that really to much to ask
(YES apparently is IS!!!)
sorry for the pity party
but GAAAAH!!!!! :)
dont judge me please, just a mom having a bad day (or week!!! LOL!)
we are entitled to them too -- right?

another giveaway

oh my! look at all this goodness --

go here for a chance to win it!!!

-B

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theres an awesome kit of yummy BG up for grabs!!!
have a looksee
-B