sorry i have been neglecting my blog
oops! had so much going on, health-wise that i just havent been on the puter much -- it was hurting my eyes just way way way to much to sit & look at the computer, much less sit & think & type! no way!!!
so -- what has been happening with me?
well, i got my botox shots for my headaches/migraines
& that was the begining of the BLEK!!!! lol after i got the shots my doc & neuro yanked me off several different meds
so i got pretty sick from coming off all the narcotics, among many other things {sigh}
& let me tell you THAT SUCKED!!!!! big big big time :( like the worst 4,5,6 days of my life!!! for sure! never want to have to go thru that again! nope! never ever!!!
so now that is over with
BUT the headaches ARE NOT!!! gaaaah! go figure, right??? the neuro has only had ONE PERSON in all her years of giving the botox for headaches that it didnt help --
i am still trying to decide if its helping enough that i want to keep getting them every 3 months
i dunno
it just freaks me out SO SO badly!!! i mean like 17 or so shots -- in several spot along both my eyebrows, temples, IN MY SCALP!!!! gaaah! those ones really freaked me!!! & along the base of my skull & IN both my shoulders
{sigh}
scary, huh?
i think so!!!! i am not normally afraid of shots at all BUT, putting them in THOSE spots -- creepy to me!!!
& now i cant move my face :( that makes me angry! LOL!!! i can barely raise my eyebrows, & cant bring the together in the middle AT ALL!!! i totally feel trapped in my face! & have had more then 1 anxiety attack about it -- i know some ppl will prolly think i am crazy for that LOL!!! but i am like the most EXTREMELY claustrophobic person you would ever meet!! i mean it! seriously!! i get really freaked out if i am in a car & it is raining hard -- makes me feel SO claustrophobic, just freaks freaks freaks me out!!!!! so not being able to move my face, gaah!!! just hate it :(
so, i dunno
but as far as the headaches -- well, like i said they arent gone, not by any means :( i had 2 migraines last week, along with a headache that lasted 4 days
so, last week was just plain painful! have a slight headache today, hopefully it will pass after i eat something. ***crossing finners!!!***
but it does seem that IN BETWEEN the headaches there is no pain --
what i mean by that is
before when i would have a headaches 'go away' i would still feel the pain -- like it lingered! I could almost ALWAYS feel the pain in my head of a headaches coming or going or current or whatever - but there was just always some pain going on!! but now it seems that in between the headaches, i actually have times with NO pain!!! i havent felt the feeling of no pain in LITERALLY years!!!!! it was really weird at first!! so, i dunno. its really hard to know if its the botox thats helping or some of the meds that i am not taking or what the deal is {sigh}
i dunno
i kinda feel like i am back where i started a few yrs ago before i even had a dr treating me LOL!! cuz i had the headaches for yrs before i went to a dr about them. i just dealt with them on my own. i almost feel like i was better off before i went to a doc for them -- cuz thats what started all the meds
oh well, cant go back now
so, thats the deal with that!! lol
long story, huh? sorry :) if you are still with me -- then thanks for hangin there thru all that!
i think thats all for now
i will do another catch up post about the kids & fam & scrappy stuff later :)
hope you are all doing well!!!
take care~
♥B
i did this LO for the January issue of 
& this is a wreath that i made for my mom for Christmas :)
& I also made her these clips that hold photos for my Mom for xmas (I put a pic in each one, 1 of each of my kids) made these out of binder clips--
i have a few other LOs that i have done but i cant post yet :) i will get them posted over the next few weeks as Tam posts them on the Sketches! blog
